looking around i know i'm done
seeing you here
the dark thing in your chest
was always destined
for a place like this
like the night we swam to adam
and the dragon almost killed us
i don't know how to feel it yet
but parting ways
has always been inevitable
this is where i live
you below sad
and not even feeling it yet
i look into your beautiful blue eyes
and i know i'm done
i won't leave for a year
but i'm already gone
paper slippers
doing their sand paper drag
your choices make you a prisoner
coke dealer boyfriend
brings you the leather bound journal
you always wanted
you show me and say brightly
"isn't that sweet"
your eyes cast down
you hear my unspoken judgement
he cuts his life
in your apartment
and you get sent
to bellevue
i want him to leave
he sits
not speaking
rehab prison
is actually quite sobering
when your mania
engaged
he wrapped his livelihood
and made to leave
he left you
to the straight jacket
and the bitter
schoolyard weave
new york
we need time apart
it's not me
it's you
my oldest friend
just ate her way
to the dark center
of your zoo
